My Dad Diary: How My Future Ambitions Have Changed

Future Ambition
Now that I’m a father, things have changed.

I no longer think about my future with me as the central part, now center stage belongs to my daughter.

In the first few months after she was born, whenever I would be out, every random female I saw caused me to think of my daughter and her future. If I saw a 70 year old, I thought about my daughter when she’s 70, imagining what kind of life she might live. When I saw a group of 16 year old girls chatting away, I thought of my daughter, and wondered what kind of friends she’ll have, what dreams and passions she’ll have. When I saw a little girl just starting to ride her first bike, I saw images of my daughter, growing up too fast.

My future used to be about me, now it’s really about her.

I want her to walk into her future full of hope, confidence and passion. I want her to experience her father’s unconditional love each day. I want to guide her as best I can to live out the dreams she has in her heart, and help cultivate her creativity the best I can. I want her to live an adventurous life. I want her to be free in her spirit, and at rest that to her daddy, she’s already perfect without ever having to do a thing.

What is so easy for me to understand now as a father to my child, is not so easy to accept as a child to my heavenly Father, but I feel I must.

God is our heavenly father, and as incredible as it is, he’s not thinking of his future, he’s thinking of ours.

He wants us to walk into our future full of hope, confidence and passion. He wants us to experience our Father’s unconditional love each day. He wants to guide us as best he can to live out the dreams he has placed in our hearts and help cultivate our creativity the best he can. He wants us to live an adventurous life. He wants us to be free in our spirit, and at rest that to our heavenly Daddy, we’re already perfect without ever having to do a thing.

When I think of my daughter, sometimes I just start crying with joy. Then I wonder how many times God has done that over me.

God’s love for us knows no bounds, and we are the object of his affection. Enjoy his love. Rest in his commitment to your future. Smile. Dad loves you.

Jacob

I contemplate my own relationship with Father and wonder many times what makes it so difficult to relate to or understand/comprehend His love for us. Why does it have to be linked to my limited understanding or restricted knowledge? If my relationship and affection to Father is determined by my mental knowledge of Him I foresee a less admirable relationship. This brings me to a topic you might want to discuss for the less knowledgeable like me; Revelation! Somehow I believe He can correct the mindset of many years of warped perception through a moment of revelation. If I were less dependent on theological arguments and more dependent on revelation from God I might not have the struggle, about His Love, I sometimes wrestle through. This ultimately warrants me owning my own faith, based on revelation from God, not someone else’s, based on theology. What do you think Mick?

Mick

yeah I agree. The thing is, basically everyone’s theology is wrong, I’m sure mine is too in places. We often act like we have a perfect understanding of God’s ways, thinking it’s very basic to understand – but actually, God is the universe creator, he’s doing very BIG things way beyond our understanding. What I think helps all of us in Christ is to share our thoughts and revelations from God, but not act like Moses dictating truth to people. After all, in a few years God will most likely drop a revelation in our hearts that turns years of theology on its head. When we follow our heart, and seek the Christ inside us, we truly start seeing the reality of God’s love, and we joyfully embrace the great mysteries still unknown to us about the complexity of God.

My daughter loves me I’m sure, but she only knows a fraction about me at the moment. That’s OK, I’m the dad, and my goal is to relate with her in a way she can grasp. If she feels my love, I’ve communicated the most important part. I think God is the same with us. Most things are beyond our ability to grasp (how does the galaxy balance perfectly, just as an example) but if we see/feel/know he loves us, he’s communicated the most important thing.

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Your daughter is one blessed little girl with a father like you Mick!
Jacob, I think psalm 131 sums it all up for me. ” Like a child at rest on its Fathers knee.”. Easy to say, not so easy to do at times!